We were on vacation this last week, and had a great time with our family, but I found myself slipping. I took my bible with me fully intending to get up early every morning and do my bible study and ended up not even getting it out of the van at all the whole time I was there. We have been listening to Christian radio stations locally for a few months now and it really helps us stay focused on God every single day, but out of town it was hard to find stations so we ended up listening to other types of music again. It’s amazing how just listening to music not solely about dedicating life to God made my mind slip from thinking of Him to thinking about more carnal issues. I could literally feel the descent in my thoughts. We even forgot to pray over our meals.
I disappointed God this last week by losing my focus on Him and I felt disappointed in myself, too. It was nice to relax and “get away from it all”, but I never wanted or intended to pull away from Him in the process.
Now that we are back home, it feels like a chore to recenter myself and refocus, but I am SO glad to feel myself drawing closer back where I should be. I am reminded that God loves me no matter where I am, but that His desire is that I stick as closely to Him as possible. I hope that next time I can do better! James 4:7-8 Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. I want to submit myself daily to His will, resist the temptations of the devil, and draw near to Him no matter where I am and what I am doing, and then I want to stay there!!!!!