As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
Are you facing something that seems so much bigger than you are capable of handling? I am. And a lot of people I love seem to be in the emotional trenches, too. I have had diagnosed depression since I was a teenager and it seems that the stress of life and loss have combined to give me a bit of a flare-up right now. Nothing new, but through my tears yesterday I was able to see the truth. And this song has been playing in my mind since I woke this morning. It doesn’t matter what I–you–face, God’s got you in the palm of His amazing hand. I made a decision yesterday to choose happiness. To choose to keep my eyes focused on Him and take steps toward things that make me happy. It was a small decision yesterday. Even though my eyes were heavy and I could have laid on the couch continuing to sink further into depression, I took the kids to Chick-Fil-A (thanks to some amazing therapists who gave us a gift card for Christmas–thanks ladies!). It was worth the effort that my weary mind and body didn’t want to put out. I smiled and laughed as they enjoyed the indoor playground, and I felt more like myself as I drove home.
People who don’t have depression, have never experienced it, don’t understand what it’s like, I’ll grant. But, for those of you who have, you know what I mean when I say that it’s something you have to fight through daily when you’re in a “funk.” Some days it’s easier than others, but my prayer for you is that today will be an easy day. That you will find something that will make you smile and feel more like yourself. That you will have the energy to seek out something that will lift you up. Whether it’s an activity with your kids, a quick walk outside, or reading a good book, I pray you have time for that today. Take it one day at a time, finding something each day that helps you feel better, and soon you’ll have a string of positive days.
Sometimes I can barely hear God’s whisper, but it never fails to be there. He’s waiting for us to seek Him and trust Him. With open arms. With healing. With love.