II Corinthians 12:9–And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee; for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
I am a very independent, headstrong, strong-willed person. And it has gained me a lot of ground in my life. Valedictorian. Swim team captain. A job of some sort steadily since I was fifteen. Marriage with land and house purchase at twenty-one. College graduate with honors. Three healthy biological kids before thirty. Foster parent for three years. Adoption of two kids. Full-time at-home medical transcription job through all the kids (until two years ago). And now, a writing career that is the first truly fulfilling career I’ve had (not counting marriage and kids). You get the point. It isn’t easy for me to be weak. I don’t like to feel out-of-control. I don’t like to fail. And most of the time, that’s a good thing.
Sometimes, though, it gets me in trouble. I know God is far more powerful than I can even imagine. Yet, I take on the weight of my world and try to go at it all alone. Usually this lasts for a time then implodes around me, with my body, mind, spirit, and emotions completely exhausted.
It is okay to admit that I am not as strong as God and let Him take over. If I did it from the beginning of my struggles, they would go much more smoothly, I know. He wants me to rely on Him. To trust Him. To let Him lead. I would like to do better with this, so I’ll be praying that I allow myself to be weak in His presence so that He might be a stronger presence in my life. Do you? I’d love to hear your comments below.
I want to allow myself to be weak with God so He might be a stronger presence in my life. #prayer @Sfoust25 -Tweet that!
(Photo taken by me in Hot Springs, NC)